What If I Let Fear Win?

I love telling this story.

Five years ago, I was working a very stressful job in the mental health field, putting in an average of 50+ hours a week, 2 teenagers still at home, sporting activities every evening, all the high school-going into college events and pressures, and if that wasn’t enough I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease.

I had been visiting a local church in which a group of ladies were getting together to study a book written by our pastor’s wife. I joined the group and on the first night we were asked a thought provoking question, “If money, time, family and job responsibilities were not a factor, what is the one thing you would want to do or be?”
I think I was the first person to be asked. At least that’s how it felt, because I blurted out what came to my mind. “I’d be an illustrator for a children’s book”. Yikes, what just came out of my mouth and where did THAT come from? I felt warm and sweaty. Did anyone think it was stupid? Were the women laughing at me? Of course not, the LIES of the enemy poured over me and embarrassment consumed me. As the presenter went around from person to person, I couldn’t hear what anyone else said because I was so consumed over the crazy, ridiculous answer I gave!

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Sidewalk Art

In Florida, there’s been LOTS of rain EVERYDAY!

While the skies were blue this morning, I took the opportunity to go for a walk and soak in some natural vitamin D. I walked my usual “path”, looking at the usual trees (checking out the neighbor’s mango trees), the usual yards with beautiful landscaping and flowers (wishing I could pick some flowers and always wondering how their yard could be kept weed-free), nodding to the joggers as they passed by (wondering how they could jog in this heat) and all the other thoughts that normally consumed my brain!

BUT, I LOVE when God opens my eyes to SEE something new. My eyes gazed down to the sidewalk and there in front of me were the most beautiful designs across the sidewalk created by the shadows of the trees!  The designs were fascinating and my morning walk became a quest to seek out the different designs on the sidewalks! I was in total amazement at the beauty dancing on the sidewalks.  For the rest of the walk I kept my focus RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME!

Once I got home I couldn’t help to think about  how many times on my life path did I look to the right or to the left?  Or I focused on what everyone else was doing?  Or I got sidetracked with life busy-ness. How many days/weeks and yes, even years, did I go through the same motions, same mind set and same attitude towards everything and everyone?

Where are you looking?  What are you seeking?  Maybe it’s time to look RIGHT IN FRONT of you!  What “sidewalk art” are you missing out on?

My walks will never be the same and I’m so thankful for the reminder! I would love to hear what “sidewalk art” you have experienced!

Courageous expression from the heART together,

~ Carlyn
Director of Creative Art
Sisterhood Connections

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The Story of an Art Table

While cleaning off my art table today, I started to uncover the many paint markings and drippings. Over time, these beautiful messes began to create a picture.

“I stared at the art table and goosebumps rose up on my body, my heart felt full and tears filled my eyes.” 

What I saw was a story. A story of healing, love, reconnections, passion, and friendships. I also saw tears, fears, and hesitations that were all challenged and defeated. I saw the numerous smiles of pride and self-value being acknowledged. I saw freedom to create and no judgment.

My tears streamed down on my face. You see, I have days where my doubts creep up. I ask myself “Am I making a difference”? It took the story of an art table to answer my question.

What story are you painting on your life canvas? What messy, wonderful drippings, splatters, and markings are you leaving behind as beautiful reminders of your courageous journey?

Courageously creating together,

~ Carlyn 💜💜
Director of Creative Art
Sisterhood Connections

Carlyn is the Director of Creative Arts for Sisterhood Connections, a Global Women’s Empowerment Organization and also CEO of Carlyn’s Creative Center. Read more here about Carlyn .


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