Sister, I hope you are finishing off the year with an exciting escape of adventures! I have been invited to take a trip to Mexico City and I am more nervous than excited. I’ve been recovering from my health and surgeries I’ve had from the past year that traveling seems complicated. Traveling doesn’t seem easy to me like it did once before. I’ve been feeling excited, but the back of my head I can’t seem to shake off the feeling of fear. Nervousness starts to creep up and I’m doubting I’ll go. “Will I be okay?” “Will I get sick” “what if I have pain” just ridiculous thoughts flowing through my head. I’m still learning about my body and what things I can do and can’t do. My health has changed tremendously since being a teen. And there’s nothing more I could wish for but to feel normal again.
Selfish-love what is the meaning of this word to you? For me, it means loving yourself just the way you are, the way you look, the way you act, and the way you feel despite what others might say. Some of us have a hard time accepting the type of human we are. We want to look just as great as any other woman we might crush on. We want to look just as good or even better right? The comparison is one of the most terrible ways you can do to bring your self-esteem down. So stop right now and think about the things that you love about yourself! Sure some women are born with natural beauty and that is the truth! Some of us are born special made haha, winky face because you know what I mean. We have things that we don’t like from our bodies, to our skin, to our personalities to the way we dress up.
We start to pick on us, we look at our flaws and find things that we just hate about ourselves! I know I’ve been there, these are just feelings that shouldn’t even be there at all but are. We are all born with our own uniqueness, our own personality, our own style, our own mark. And yet we can’t accept the way we were made. We fall for people’s judgments so easily they don’t seem to know how hard it can be for us. Could it be hate or just plain jealousy? Nobody knows because, in reality, nobody will tell you how they feel or what makes them they say rude comments about you or to you. Know that the person who has ever said anything about you has their own insecurities. Everyone hides them and everyone is too blind to see their mistakes. It’s so easy to say hateful words but it’s so hard to forget.
Growing up I’ve always loved being outside, I called my self an outdoor monkey. I loved exploring everywhere and always seem to come home looking like a mess. My parents used to live near a farm and I always seemed to enjoy running into the fields. Feeling the wispy touch of the grain stems on my skin. Climbing bails of hay that were stacked up high. Or going into the mountains and climbing the highest hill, listening to the wolves howl at night, laying outside on the grass, looking up at the beautiful starry sky. I love nature with all its beauty, with all its colors, the feeling of happiness running through my soul. These are memories I will forever cherish, the habits I will never change!
Is there such thing as a soul friendship? When it comes to friends I have realized that I get easily attracted by their energy. It’s easy for me to pick up vibes from someone, could be strange to you. But I have come to appreciate that feeling, I have lots of friends but only a few have truly been there for me during my tough times. These girls are the type of people that set everything aside to help. Usually I like doing things on my own, I feel embarrassed when I have to ask one of them for help. Sure they tell me not to worry its just hard for me to get over that feeling. I realize how truly blessed I really am to have them in my life. If they see me struggling, their first instinct is to help me out. I appreciate it a lot and even though I don’t say it much, I am dedicating this article to them.
How do you feel when others help you? How does it feel when someone lends you a hand in your time of need? Or when they see you struggle, what is your reaction? Do you feel embarrassed? Upset, because you can’t do some things on your own?
I can tell you right now these are just mixed feelings we perceive. I’ve seen people smile when someone lends them a helping hand, some appreciate the help so much they become happy with gratitude, and there is always the people who say no with an attitude. Could it be that they feel less of a person for accepting the help? Or possibly that they just don’t want to ruin their strong and resilient image? At times we do come to think we are too much of ourselves, we don’t need help from anyone. We are smart, we are strong, we are capable of doing anything. Continue reading “Gratitude For The Aide”