Sister, I hope you are finishing off the year with an exciting escape of adventures! I have been invited to take a trip to Mexico City and I am more nervous than excited. I’ve been recovering from my health and surgeries I’ve had from the past year that traveling seems complicated. Traveling doesn’t seem easy to me like it did once before. I’ve been feeling excited, but the back of my head I can’t seem to shake off the feeling of fear. Nervousness starts to creep up and I’m doubting I’ll go. “Will I be okay?” “Will I get sick” “what if I have pain” just ridiculous thoughts flowing through my head. I’m still learning about my body and what things I can do and can’t do. My health has changed tremendously since being a teen. And there’s nothing more I could wish for but to feel normal again.
Travel without worry and just have fun! Oh man, those were the days. I know how it feels to want to do something and then you have that itch that feeling of don’t do it because something could go wrong. I haven’t flown in 5 years and in between those years I’ve been recovering from Lupus and from a DVT I had in 2016 that left my leg immobile. I’ve been in remission for my Lupus which means my health has improved a lot since 2016 and is under control. My leg is starting to get movement and I can finally walk with the help of an AFO foot device that straps on my leg. I have been working out to gain the strength I had lost, I’ve been eating right to just help improve my health. So what could go wrong? Why are all these insecurities suddenly flowing over me? I wasn’t scared of flying I was scared of myself. Scared of a Lupus Flare while being in a different country. Scared of not being able to walk much because I get sore easily and there are no wheelchairs in sight. I don’t know why I was thinking negatively; when I was feeling good and doing good. I needed reassurance so I prayed, I asked for an answer to all my doubts.
It wasn’t until I talked to a close friend about my doubts and insecurities. She gave me a message that I really needed to hear. She told me to soak up this new adventure ahead because there is no way anything would stop me from enjoying life. Keep believing in yourself and keep that positive energy flowing. When you bring negative thoughts in your head it spreads everywhere like a disease. You fear everything and you doubt a lot! So stop right now and think about all the great things you have already done and how far you have come. Think about all the fun you will have and not the what if’s! There is no such thing as a what if but a do it! So brace yourself for what’s to come and live in the moment. Her message and vision of myself made my insecurities disappear. If she believed in me, then I should also believe in ME. Her message was the one I had asked God for and I couldn’t feel more assured about myself. I can do this!
My message to you sister, is that life can be full of obstacles and no matter what your situation is, don’t let anything stop you from enjoying life! When you least expect it there is always someone ready to cheer you on. Don’t hold your insecurities to yourself, speak up and listen there’s plenty of things that you are capable of doing. You just need to believe in yourself! Dare to adventure and live in the moment!
Mexico has treated me so great, things I have feared are not there. I am walking everywhere in town with no sign of pain. My lupus is still in remission with no signs of a flare-up. I know now that if I believe in me and hold on to my faith firmly anything can be possible. I am now planning for new adventures in 2018! The things that I feared are behind me now. No more doubts, no more insecurities. I have realized I can do anything with God by my side. He is my strength and I am his soldier and with his power I am strong. Stop making excuses sister and start living life. You got this!
Dare to adventure!
-“ Don’t listen to their stories, let’s go on an adventure!” – Guadalupe G.