My Darling Daughter…..

Part 1: The scars I bare mean the hurt is over

Part 2: The good, the bad, the pretty, the ugly

My Darling Daughter….

Just reading those words made me weep. That deep pain that I had felt just the night before. Tears streaming down my face, as I was remembering the last time I saw her. I was reflecting on the time that she wrote this letter and it was as if God was giving me a moment of time back.

Why was it so hard to read this letter? Because I missed her? Yes, I did and do miss her very much but it wasn’t just that. All of the emotions that felt like they had been locked inside for a long time come flooding out. Feelings of frustration in not understanding her choices in life, feelings of anger for her leaving my sisters and I. I went through feeling guilt within myself for feeling maybe I didn’t do enough? Maybe if I wasn’t frustrated with her, could I have helped her any more? These thoughts that pounded through my mind were now being released through my heart as I was surrendering them all to Jesus.

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The Good. The Bad. The Pretty. The Ugly.

Continuation from Part 1…..

I woke at 10pm and didn’t know what day it was. Felt like I had been asleep for days. What just happened? Oh, wait! I have my earphones on! OHHHHHH CRAP! The Mary Magdalene Circle!!! Did I fall asleep? I completely fell asleep!

I went to bed and slept harder than I have slept in a very long time.

5:45 my alarm goes off to get my son up and ready for school. This is the start of day two for the fast. I don’t feel hungry yet. I feel ok. I make yogi tea and do a small meditation. I woke my son and got him to off to school and as I began to prepare for a client session and also some deadlines for my upcoming show. I promised myself I wouldn’t take any calls or get distracted because I have lots I need to do before I pick my son up at 2:30!

I began talking to God about the things that happened the night before.

For some reason I was really being flooded with memories this morning. Not the happy, make you feel good memories but the ones that I buried. I buried them because, well, it’s what I do best. See, in the past when I dealt with painful situations, I did one of three things. And since I am sharing my experience with betrayal and deceit, these are the three things that I would do to deal with them:

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The scars I bare mean the hurt is over

‘The scars I bare mean the hurt is over and they are the healed wounds that are symbols that God has restored me.’

Today is Wednesday, October 10, 2018, and I wake with a heavy heart.

So I do what I always do. I check in with myself. Is it me? Is it my kiddos? Is it someone I love? Someone I’m close to? I am not getting an answer. Interesting.

So I meditate. I still feel heavy. I clear my energy. I still feel heavy. I pray. God says, I need you to fast. Be intentional He puts on my heart. 3 days, I need you to fast. You have been asking for things and you carry too much.

I felt a knot in my throat. I wrote in my journal. I put things in my ‘God box’ that I felt this heaviness could be. I wrote my intentions for my #intentionalfast and shared on Instagram and Facebook inviting others to join me. Something tells me that this is going to be different than it ever has.

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Never break a promise to yourself

Ouch, this one hits home because I HAVE broken promises to myself. Yet, I don’t want to beat myself up, rather, moving forward I choose to practice the self-love I teach to myself. 

In a post earlier this week I shared “Because it’s the “small promises” that we break to ourself that sets an unhealthy unconscious pattern that whenever you set out to do something, you don’t believe yourself. It’s important that you don’t ever break that trust with yourself. I think of my kiddos when they were in High School and I always told them, “don’t lie to me, because once you do it’s harder to earn that trust back” and guess what? It’s no difference for yourself.” Continue reading “Never break a promise to yourself”

Leave the past behind…..

How many times have you heard this or even thought this? And yet, we sometimes it’s still hard. We can obsess, we can ‘wallow’ in our pain, we can beat ourselves up, or even hold on to painful things and bring them up over and over. Well, this was tonight’s topic in The Soul Sister Circle, and you can LISTEN for free by signing up for FREE.

Living in the past keeps us from creating the life we truly crave. I was flipping through my Instagram account earlier and found a post I shared last year, and it’s so relevant for this topic! 

We cannot become who we want to be by holding on to who we are

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Potatoes, Eggs, or Coffee? Which would you rather be?

Hey family! If you have never heard of this inspiring story, let me share it today with you. We have all felt challenges in our life, pain, trauma, and sometimes where there seems to be no ‘light at the end of the tunnel’. This story helps to really shift your perspective on the choices in how you will OVERCOME and PERSEVERE. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do 😉

Once upon a time a daughter complained to her father that her life was miserable and that she didn’t know how she was going to make it. She was tired of fighting and struggling all the time. It seemed just as one problem was solved, another one soon followed.

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It’s been a while…..

Omgosh! Where have I been!? I have missed you! It’s been a while since I have gone live, can’t wait to share what I have been up to and some things aren’t so ‘awesome’ yet this is a place where we can be real right?

Giving my soul sister Katherine Martin a shout out for changing my life!


And those of you who are interested in Megan Michelle Ellis work, you can check out her Facebook page, as I stated, I will be doing another video to share all of her YUMMINESS!

Listen below to my message to find out what I have been up to!

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Also, don’t miss out on this LIFE-CHANGING session that is a little more than two weeks away! Get registered, you don’t want to miss out! March 22, 8pm CDT! GET SIGNED UP! LET’S DO THIS!

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We can’t become who we want to be by holding on to who we are

EPISODE 7

“We can not become who we want to be by holding on to who we are” ~Jena Harris

Last week we spoke about balance, and the topic was finding deeper balance with work, with self-care, and with success goals. Today we are going to talk about stillness, finding our stillness within the stress. I received an email from one of the listeners and she asks about how to stay inspired when she feels so much stress in her life.

Do you ever feel so stressed that you want to give up? I know many of us have felt that way at least once or twice. We can be there at many different times in our life or we can dip in and out of feeling like you want to give up because of stress. You may be wearing lots of different hats and doing lots of different things, OR it could be one job or one duty of your life that is causing you to feel this way.

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Release Your Past and Set Yourself Free

AUDIO #323

In today’s Dream Big Noon-Spiration we explored the thoughts and ideas around the heart resonance and how to make it work for you. The message from Doreen Virtue’s book gave us some insight on letting go of past relationships or unhealthy ways that you may have done things in the past so that you can be open for new. Listen to the FULL MESSAGE HERE

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