The Good. The Bad. The Pretty. The Ugly.

Continuation from Part 1…..

I woke at 10pm and didn’t know what day it was. Felt like I had been asleep for days. What just happened? Oh, wait! I have my earphones on! OHHHHHH CRAP! The Mary Magdalene Circle!!! Did I fall asleep? I completely fell asleep!

I went to bed and slept harder than I have slept in a very long time.

5:45 my alarm goes off to get my son up and ready for school. This is the start of day two for the fast. I don’t feel hungry yet. I feel ok. I make yogi tea and do a small meditation. I woke my son and got him to off to school and as I began to prepare for a client session and also some deadlines for my upcoming show. I promised myself I wouldn’t take any calls or get distracted because I have lots I need to do before I pick my son up at 2:30!

I began talking to God about the things that happened the night before.

For some reason I was really being flooded with memories this morning. Not the happy, make you feel good memories but the ones that I buried. I buried them because, well, it’s what I do best. See, in the past when I dealt with painful situations, I did one of three things. And since I am sharing my experience with betrayal and deceit, these are the three things that I would do to deal with them:

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The scars I bare mean the hurt is over

‘The scars I bare mean the hurt is over and they are the healed wounds that are symbols that God has restored me.’

Today is Wednesday, October 10, 2018, and I wake with a heavy heart.

So I do what I always do. I check in with myself. Is it me? Is it my kiddos? Is it someone I love? Someone I’m close to? I am not getting an answer. Interesting.

So I meditate. I still feel heavy. I clear my energy. I still feel heavy. I pray. God says, I need you to fast. Be intentional He puts on my heart. 3 days, I need you to fast. You have been asking for things and you carry too much.

I felt a knot in my throat. I wrote in my journal. I put things in my ‘God box’ that I felt this heaviness could be. I wrote my intentions for my #intentionalfast and shared on Instagram and Facebook inviting others to join me. Something tells me that this is going to be different than it ever has.

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Leave the past behind…..

How many times have you heard this or even thought this? And yet, we sometimes it’s still hard. We can obsess, we can ‘wallow’ in our pain, we can beat ourselves up, or even hold on to painful things and bring them up over and over. 

Living in the past keeps us from creating the life we truly crave. I was flipping through my Instagram account earlier and found a post I shared last year, and it’s so relevant for this topic! 

“We cannot become who we want to be by holding on to who we are”

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The pain that you went through was exactly what you needed

Gosh! Today’s message on Dream Big Noon-Spiration was an uncomfortable message to share. Sometimes what is inspired in me to share with everyone is not always the easy thing to say, yet, I am trusting in God. 

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Have you been through an experience or situation where it’s not easy to “see the good” or focus on the blessings? Whew! Me too! I’ve been there! Still can go there! I remember many times where I pray about it and ask God “really!? Ok, God, where are the blessings in this situation”! Have you felt that way? Sometimes being able to expand and see the light takes time, especially if we are still emotionally engaging in the experience or memory. Give yourself some time to get through it without judgment. And when you are ready to shift the way you feel and the way that you are engaging in the memory, set aside all of the pain and hurt long enough for you to ask yourself these short questions:

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Loneliness is an inside struggle

In a world where we have the most connection through Iphones, Facetime, Skype, text, Facebook, and live videos why are many feeling more alone than ever?

Things I was pondering today:

What is the cure for loneliness?

What is the loneliness prescription?

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