The Good. The Bad. The Pretty. The Ugly.

Continuation from Part 1…..

I woke at 10pm and didn’t know what day it was. Felt like I had been asleep for days. What just happened? Oh, wait! I have my earphones on! OHHHHHH CRAP! The Mary Magdalene Circle!!! Did I fall asleep? I completely fell asleep!

I went to bed and slept harder than I have slept in a very long time.

5:45 my alarm goes off to get my son up and ready for school. This is the start of day two for the fast. I don’t feel hungry yet. I feel ok. I make yogi tea and do a small meditation. I woke my son and got him to off to school and as I began to prepare for a client session and also some deadlines for my upcoming show. I promised myself I wouldn’t take any calls or get distracted because I have lots I need to do before I pick my son up at 2:30!

I began talking to God about the things that happened the night before.

For some reason I was really being flooded with memories this morning. Not the happy, make you feel good memories but the ones that I buried. I buried them because, well, it’s what I do best. See, in the past when I dealt with painful situations, I did one of three things. And since I am sharing my experience with betrayal and deceit, these are the three things that I would do to deal with them:

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The scars I bare mean the hurt is over

‘The scars I bare mean the hurt is over and they are the healed wounds that are symbols that God has restored me.’

Today is Wednesday, October 10, 2018, and I wake with a heavy heart.

So I do what I always do. I check in with myself. Is it me? Is it my kiddos? Is it someone I love? Someone I’m close to? I am not getting an answer. Interesting.

So I meditate. I still feel heavy. I clear my energy. I still feel heavy. I pray. God says, I need you to fast. Be intentional He puts on my heart. 3 days, I need you to fast. You have been asking for things and you carry too much.

I felt a knot in my throat. I wrote in my journal. I put things in my ‘God box’ that I felt this heaviness could be. I wrote my intentions for my #intentionalfast and shared on Instagram and Facebook inviting others to join me. Something tells me that this is going to be different than it ever has.

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Never break a promise to yourself

Ouch, this one hits home because I HAVE broken promises to myself. Yet, I don’t want to beat myself up, rather, moving forward I choose to practice the self-love I teach to myself. 

In a post earlier this week I shared “Because it’s the “small promises” that we break to ourself that sets an unhealthy unconscious pattern that whenever you set out to do something, you don’t believe yourself. It’s important that you don’t ever break that trust with yourself. I think of my kiddos when they were in High School and I always told them, “don’t lie to me, because once you do it’s harder to earn that trust back” and guess what? It’s no difference for yourself.” Continue reading “Never break a promise to yourself”

Step Forward and Shine

Gosh, today is the BIG DAY FRIENDS! I am so excited……!!!!!!

Sooooo, ‘Step forward and shine’, this is what it means to me:

  • To let your personality and character show: Unapologetically show up and be proud of who you are. Just. How. God. Created. You. Then you can Step forward and shine!
  • Nurture relationships: This also includes the relationship with yourself! You can really step forward and shine when you are honoring sacred relationships first.
  • Honoring your self-care: Ensuring that your cup is full so you can give to others, which allows you to step forward and shine.
  • Embracing a positive mindset: This helps you to build that confidence for future endeavors enabling you to STEP FORWARD AND SHINE!

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Take time to make your soul happy

Today’s Soul Sister Circle we brought forward living a ‘happy’ life and what that means. Sometimes I feel that this message can get watered down and drowned out because you hear it so much. ‘Be happy’, ‘choose happiness’, even the song ‘Happy’, we see this message so much. Today we explored some ways that we could expand more happiness in our life that adds to the richness of life and also how it can affect your mood, people you live with, and how you respond to things in your life. 

We have the virtual Soul Sister Circle every single Sunday and you are welcome to join live or listen to the replay by joining us HERE.

I want to share with my blogging friends just a few things that came to me for our soul circle today. May these inspire you in a beautiful way today. 

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Not all storms are here to disrupt your life

Not all storms are here to disrupt your life, some come to clear your path.

Sometimes hitting that reset button is more than you anticipated. Start over from scratch. I have to share something painful YET as I say it I have this inner whisper knowing that it’s exactly as it’s supposed to be. I woke one morning a year ago with this HUGE inspiration to begin writing another book. I remember it was so strong that the words were flowing faster than I could type… wow, I literally had a book that was getting ready to be released and I remember thinking ‘another book already’? If you would have told me years ago that I would be an author and be writing not just A BOOK, but books, I would have laughed and called you crazy. You see, I have never really liked writing. I remember whenever I had to write a book report in school I really struggled. I never enjoyed it. I enjoyed reading just not articulating what I read. 

Ok, let’s get back to my point, haha. SO As I began to write, for three days the words kept coming. With each book I write it keeps getting easier and more fun! Now it’s been a week of on and off writing and I have roughly 50 pages…. Staying up late with little sleep and not feeling tired at all. Wow! This is so awesome I remember thinking. I can see how some authors can write a book a year at this rate! Then…..

THEN EVERYTHING CAME TO A CRASHING HALT.

Really? What just happened? It was all flowing so perfectly divine and intense, and now what? (Birds chirping) Ok God, I will wait to hear you again, and I will wait to hear my own inner self again. Weekly I would open up the pages and just stare at it. Nope, not here yet… isn’t that interesting? Months go by and then in March I had some computer issues, and I needed to clear some stuff off of it. (Lord knows my poor computer gets overworked! LOL) So I spent a day deleting so many old files and documents and photos that I no longer needed. It was a big job but it did the trick! A week later I thought about the book, went to open it up and felt this sickening sinking feeling in my belly.  Continue reading “Not all storms are here to disrupt your life”

I STILL RISE……

2 and 1/2 hours of sleep?

You would think that I would be exhausted….

Yet, God is doing something big in my life that I can’t explain. The best word I can use to describe this profound awakening is “Re-New”. 

Recently I had someone on Instagram reach out and send me a personal message. (Of course they have a private account see I can’t really so who this person is) I won’t go into the details about it, because it’s just THAT, personal. Apparently my posts and my faith that I portray and the way that I choose to speak MY life and MY own walk with God bothers this person. The comment went ‘It drives me crazy seeing you play this “holy roller” and “God is great”….. 

Let me first back up to say that in my adult life I wouldn’t exactly say I was a Christian, although I absolutely love Jesus and fully am a believer, yet I never felt like I “fit in” to the ‘Christian mold’. And in my adult life I wouldn’t say I was “new age”, even though I have done 4 years of metaphysical studies and my degree shows it, and many people ‘think’ that is who I am (even family members making comments), but I don’t fit into that mold either. I wouldn’t consider myself a Buddhist, even though I love to meditate and LOVE hot yoga….

Do you see where I am going with this?

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Leave the past behind…..

How many times have you heard this or even thought this? And yet, we sometimes it’s still hard. We can obsess, we can ‘wallow’ in our pain, we can beat ourselves up, or even hold on to painful things and bring them up over and over. Well, this was tonight’s topic in The Soul Sister Circle, and you can LISTEN for free by signing up for FREE.

Living in the past keeps us from creating the life we truly crave. I was flipping through my Instagram account earlier and found a post I shared last year, and it’s so relevant for this topic! 

We cannot become who we want to be by holding on to who we are

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Potatoes, Eggs, or Coffee? Which would you rather be?

Hey family! If you have never heard of this inspiring story, let me share it today with you. We have all felt challenges in our life, pain, trauma, and sometimes where there seems to be no ‘light at the end of the tunnel’. This story helps to really shift your perspective on the choices in how you will OVERCOME and PERSEVERE. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do 😉

Once upon a time a daughter complained to her father that her life was miserable and that she didn’t know how she was going to make it. She was tired of fighting and struggling all the time. It seemed just as one problem was solved, another one soon followed.

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